head over heels
After a year, here I am, ready to share my story again. Story that is filled with joy, anguish, and tears. It has been a long time since I fell in love with someone. It was atrocious. It was really traumatic! From then on, I told myself that if ever I will fall in love again, I have to be witty and prudent before I give my all. This is me. This has been my pathological drama ever since—-will do everything for love. Way back 3 years ago, I met this cool, nonchalant, Turd Burglar. We were barred to have an exchange of good thoughts because we were not really close. We were contented with just simple HIs and HELLOs. Until when the sem ended, this tool had also gone. I continued my life like what I was before. Study at day and party at night. Schooling made me really busy; time swept so fast that I even could not remember how my life went through those days. All I just remember were the friends I’ve met during those times which until now are always there for me. But albeit of all the love that I received from family and friends, I still feel incomplete. There is this thing that you only get from someone special, and that is something I can hardly define. March has come and classes are over. I was supposed to attend early review classes in preparation for the board exams. Unexpectedly, this tool has come back… but for a purpose. I honestly have erred to this tool that is why he came up with a deal and I agreed to it. I have no choice. I have to payback. The deal includes restrictions which I cannot blurt out further. When this tool asked for my number, I was like “Maybe this is it. Maybe not. Maybe.” I settled for words which do not have assurance. Words that pushed me to take the risk, whether how painful it will be. We texted from 9pm until 6 in the morning. I have never felt somnolent during the time we were texting. I had so much fun. The next day, we met. We stayed here in my crib, drank a bit, shared stories, and even feelings. That night has become one of the most memorable nights of my life. This tool blurted out all the heartache and sufferings he has with his partner. Yes, you read it right. He has a partner. We continued texting. I kept the deal. Days after, I started to express how I feel. From simple hi’s and hello’s to “I missed you.” and “wish you were here.” Hell yeah, I fell in love again. I do not know why. I really do not know. It just happened. We kept on texting and I told him about how I feel. The next day, he texted me. He was on his way to Tagaytay to think about his feelings? IDK. I’m not sure why he went there alone. He told me that he was ambivalent. That he was half-hearted. When I knew about it, I was overwhelmed. Because what would you feel if someone you love loves you back? Albeit I was glad about it, I didn’t forget the other side of the book. That was the hardest feeling ever, when you are faced to choose between your friend and the one you love. The next night, we met again. We talked about lots of things. We planned for the next step—- stay or let go? My tears fell. I was really crying. I wanted to stay, but we were not on the right track. That day, I have made a list of surprises for him. A total of 43 surprises—-43 corresponds to days before he leaves for US, because I want him to realize that every day that comes is specially made for him. But things have changed, I felt that he was a little bit cold. I said my farewell many times, but I could hardly just snob him. Days after, he broke up with his partner. I felt like I was the reason, but he denied. He told me that it was his personal reasons why he broke up with his partner. After they broke up, he went somewhere to have fun. I asked him if he could meet my friends, but he refused to. Last night, he texted me. He told me that he would be leaving in a while. I’ve begged and pleaded him to tell me his destination, but I failed to know it. You know the hardest part? It’s when he walked away from you, and you were running after him. It was really painful. While I was running, I could not help myself but cry. I tried to suppress what I feel because I want to act like I’m strong, that I can handle the situation. But deep inside, I was hurting. You know the feeling that you are willing to do everything just to win his heart? That you are willing to give up everything even med school just for him? I’m still hurting. It hurts a lot. I feel like he does not appreciate all my efforts. And the hardest part? When I asked him if he really loves me, he said “Mahal kita.” WTF! Then why do you have to leave me? If there’s very one thing that I’m certain of, I feel like I was only a REBOUND. Maybe I should end this, for the better. If we are really meant for each other, time will come for us. A time when we can correct all mistakes of the pass. Everything that happened, except for the special feeling called LOVE. I will always love you. I will wait for you. I miss you. It’s really hard for me to say this, but good bye for now. I love you.
Aquino-Cojuangco: “Facts They Don’t Want You to Know”
A viral animated video by Filipino artist Baron Buchokoy is already making its way around the Internet. The 15-minute piece gives a brief overview of the Aquino-Cojuangco’s family tree and their rise and stay in power.
The video comes in 4 parts:
I : Cojuangco Wealth - how the Cojuangcos aquired their fortune
II: Hacienda Luisita - the aquiring and conditions behind the land
III: Killing Spree - the killings related to the Hacienda
IV: Aquino-Cojuangco Forever - how local media portrays the familyAccording to Baron Buchokoy, the video was not meant to be anti Aquino-Cojuangco and that its only aim is to show the other side of the political clan that is often muted in local media. He says the video’s purpose is to educate the dumbed-down, ordinary Filipino citizen.
Disclaimer: Though several sources have been cited within the video, viewers are still recommended to check all the facts first.
Sabihin na nating may reason na talaga akong manoong ng PBB Unlimited everyday.
Well, kung napanood niyo kagabi ang PBB at ang pagpasok ng new set of housemates ni Kuya, matatandaan niyo siguro ang guy, 2nd from the left. Kasi naman, medyo nagtrending ata siya sa Twitter. Lol. Yes, yes. It’s MARK LUZ ( Ang Model Loverboy ng Quezon City). He’s my college classmate/blockmate,
cheatmateseatmate (Kasi tuwing alphabetical arrangement, magkatabi kami. Luz then Malicsi, gets?), Dutymate (Sa’min kasi sa FEU, 1 duty group consists of 12 members. So gets? Magkasunod kami tuwing alphabetical order so dutymate ko talaga siya.), we also became Student Council co-officers, ang aming ‘official driver’ tuwing duty (Everytime na malayo ang duty namin, si Mark ang nagdadala ng sasakyan na kakasya kaming 12. He’s rich so maraming sasakyan to choose from.), ‘official tambayan’ din namin ang house niya somewhere in QC, and last but not the least, he’s a very good friend/katropa/kabarkada etc etc etc.He’s not that macho noon katulad ngayon, although crush na siya ng bayan talaga (Lalo na ng mga lower years. Gets niyo yung effect na tumitigil ang lahat everytime na dumadaan siya sa hallways? Lol.). I remember pa nga noon, he’s very mahiyain talaga. Hindi siya sanay sa mga ganyan, kaya nga sa FEU, hindi siya sumasali sa kahit anong beauty contests/pageants. Oh, and he’s the current title holder ng Mr. Mossimo Bikini Summit - EcoTourism 2011 something like that. Last na nagkasama kami nito ay nung September 2011. He’s busy rin kasi. I invited him to judge a pageant sa FEU pero hindi niya nabanggit yung about sa PBB. I guess, pasok na talaga siya. It’s just that, ‘di mo naman pwedeng i-disclose ‘yun sa iba kapag nakapasok ka diba? Napa-blog lang ako dito hindi naman dahil sa big deal ito sa’kin. Kungbaga, ganito lang pala yung feeling kapag may kaibigan kang andun na, gets? Alam namin noon na artistahin na siya and nagmomodel-model na siya talaga but nakakagulat lang kasi hindi naman ‘to ine-expect. Lol.
I wonder kung ano kaya ang naging reaction ng iba naming kabarkada kagabi? Goodluck Mark. Make us all proud. Lol. As if naman mababasa mo pa ito?
See also: I can’t find a good picture namin. Medyo ang hirap maghanap kasi hindi naman kami mahilig magpapicture na dalawa and ‘yan lang ang nakita ko. Okay, I know, mukha akong tanga. Lol.
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tommyrot
Fudge! I can’t remember the last time I opened my Tumblr account. I usually make a post here whenever I get bored, so now you know why I am here again. :> Anyway, I’m dropping by to update you guys about what happened to me in the past few days, weeks, or months? lol <that was exaggerated> So, I shall begin by saying how much I was surprised with my grades this sem. Sadly, there was a 0.03 decrement in my General Weighted Average(GWA) this sem. Not bad though, because it was really a horrible sem. Every subject was fastidious! Gaaah! Oh, by the way, you might be thinking that I am a grade conscious. I am not. I am just concerned about my performance in the class. :) Going back, last March 13, Doomsday this sem has come. What was it? REVALIDA! It is a test used to evaluate our skills in performing different Neurologic and Musculoskeletal procedures. I tried to go over the entire manual, but I was not able to meet my goal. I only finished a few topics. And so, the day has come, I went to school with just enough knowledge to pass the exam. Surprisingly, I got Neuro. I was like, “OMG! This is way easier than MSD”. lol I just couldn’t find assembling the balkan frame as exciting as assessing the CNs. After I performed the procedure, the grade was returned back to me, and I got 90! It was unexpected, because it was more than my expectation. And for that, I thanked God a lot! So I went home to get some sleep. When i woke up, I opened the tv. The show was ” The Buzz”. I was like, “Gosh! I slept that long? May History pa!” Don’t worry, I didn’t break down. I’m used to reviewing late at night. That’s my other side, to procrastinate over and over again. I promised to my self that I would try to get rid of this habit, but I just couldn’t help my self how.
PARTY! PARTY! Yeah! Last March 20, our section had a Team Building. Epic Fail! Why? Because I wasn’t around to be part of the event. I had my personal reasons why I didn’t come. But when I saw their pictures on FB, I had regrets. I should have attended the party, and join the fun, but I was too late. So I decided to head back to my hometown, Balanga, Bataan! At first, I thought my summer would be so exciting! Gaaah! It was epic fail! I failed to do all my plans, because my high school classmates were still having their classes. And so, I stayed at home for 7 days. I was freaking bored! I didn’t know how I would entertain myself. Good thing, Laly came. She slept over in our house. But when she left, boredom came in again. So I told my mom that I should better be staying in Manila than in Balanga for the reason that I was becoming unproductive. And so I am here again. =)
SUMMER TIME! I thought I would feel the scorching heat of the sun, but I was wrong. My friends and I deferred our get together which was supposed to happen last Monday. I wanna spend a night in the beach, where I would enjoy watching the sunset holding the hand of my baby. hahaha. Kidding! I don’t know why I used to keep on thinking about romantic moments. In fact, I have never engaged myself into any relationship this year. I missed calling someone, “babe” or “baby”. haha. But I know time will come. It’s just okay. I don’t want to rush things in the first place, but I’m looking forward to meeting someone whom I will spend my life with. Meganon? Hahaha.
Okay. I’m becoming corny na. I should better go to bed. Yeah! You read it right. Going to bed. Because I haven’t slept until this moment. So which is apt to say? Good morning or good night?GOOD MORNIGHT! =)
FEU-NRMF: The Truth Behind the Lies
This was written by a colleague Ac Acuna. I want to share it because I believe that our Alma matter’s reputation has to be redeemed. It is but inevitable for most people to believe what’s shown in the news. We have been exposed to that kind of culture. We’ve always believed that those people who have the power or those who have the title are the villains and the poor are always the ones exploited or naapi. We grew up that way. The teleseryes on TV are always like that. But what if it’s the other way around?
Two days ago a malicious headline accused FEU-NRMF of malpractice. The headline that shocked most people claimed “gunting, injection at ilan pang instrumento naiwan sa katawan ng isang lalaki”… to most people who do not have any inclination to medicine and to its practice it clearly sounds as if there was negligence of some sort. It troubled me deeply to know that my alma mater is the very center of this issue. But never did I doubt in the knowledge and capability of my colleagues and our medical staff, I knew there was some reason behind this careless journalism.
I was not present when it all happened but a colleague who was there told me all she knew. And I just can’t sleep without sharing “our side” of the story to everyone. Because that malicious headline has blown up into a big story that has evolved so much, tainting the good name of my alma mater and creating an unfair stigma to FEU-NRMF doctors and staff.
The said man was rushed in our ER in a very critical condition due to gunshot wound/s (am not really sure how many). He was directed to the operating room for exlap. I prefer to write in lay man terms as most may be overwhelmed by medical jargon and for better understanding of the matter.
This picture was taken when we had our trip in San Diego. I didn’t expect that the weather would be that cold. But then, I had a lot of fun! It was my first visit in there anyway. :)
A Country Mile
It was December 14, 2010 when I left Manila to spend my holidays here in US. At first, I was really confused if I’d still go or not, because no one was gonna accompany me. Mom told me not to go for pragmatic reasons, but I insisted. I realized that I only have 2 more years to go before my US visa expires. And so, I left Manila last Tuesday. At first, I was baffled on how to get there in the US, for I might be questioned by the Immigration. Luckily, I passed the Phil and US Immigration without being questioned that much. Mom and Tito Butch picked me up in the airport. I was filled with so much enthusiasm to feel the fresh air, and meet my relatives as well. The day after, I was invited by Tito Butch for a birthday bash of his friend. I sung and met new bunch of buddies. Tito Danny, the bday celebrant, got a magic sing videoke which we used to play and sing our favorite songs. I really had fun that day. Next day after that, we visited Universal Studios. Shoot! There were lots of new rides in there. We spent like the entire day having pictured with the diferent cartoon mascots, and watched Shrek 4D, Stage Special Effects, Waterworld, and Terminator. Albeit I got tired and exhausted walking around the Universal, I’d still call it a DAY. My cousin and I also took a visit of the hospital where she’s working. I was flabbergasted to know that almost 90% of nurses in that hospital were Filipinos. Patients were very welcoming. And when I talked to them, they replied to me vigorously (as if they are not on their convalescence). I spared a thousand smiles to at least help them to feel better. After we stepped out from that Institution, the only words that I mentioned were “I want to graduate now.”. LOL! Few days from now, we’ll be off for Vegas. Hope to have wonderful days in Vegas and in the days ahead. Woot! I’ve lots of stories to share with my friends when I go back to the Phils. Happy Holidays everyone! :)
